Until this year when I have been active with BDSM play was a regular part of day to day activity. It would ebb and flow, and the dynamics themselves were very fluid.

Since then I have returned to the scene polyamorous and a busy professional. I currently don’t have a primary partner so I only get time to play occasionally and I play very hard.

I was warned about sub drop, and I swear it was a self fulfilling prophecy, initally I felt disempowered and depressed post scene, train wreck feeling and very low energy. I did take care of my body well by eating a lot of protein and vitamin rich produce. I was ok in several days and thankfully was given an opportunity to process what happened.

Thing is it was expected that I was going to be confronted with something uncontrollable and would need to be cared for. This in many ways made me feel helpless emotionally and mentally to be able to change how I felt about the situation.

I still experience low energy and the train wreck feeling post scene. However I recognize it as my body recovering. I get the same feeling after long performances (fire performer), or any other strenuous activity. Except with more bruises and scratches

I anticipate this prior to engaging in a scene, and I respect the feeling when it comes. I pamper myself, buy fresh foods (vegan), convert largely to a raw diet, wear comfortable clothes, and pick low key activities. Usually this occurs 1 to 2 days post scene, and there is no mental or emotional drop associated with it.

Thing is yes there is involvement of endorphins, adrenalin, etc. However, strenuous high impact activity in general causes this. Once I removed the experience from the psychological effect of the scene I realized it was much the same.

Now actually post scene I feel damn awesome, and within several days feel so level, confident and happy.